goldenloki

Heart vs Head, either way I lose

Fri, 10 Oct 2008 18:59:50 GMT

Some friend I am.

When I heard that oddbunnyout was in trouble, I responded to his post with my heart and not my head. I responded to the words that he wrote. At the time, what I didn't know was that the money situation had gotten as bad as it had for the people he was living with. I didn't know that they were in the hole. I didn't ask, because I didn't feel it was my business. I learned this morning that his friend, the one who was letting him stay there had read my reply, and responded to it.

His response I would say is justified under the circumstances. I feel terrible, and have no desire to go out and do anything right now. I meant no malice in my words, again...I was only responding to the words that I read:

"The people I am living with at the moment want me out ASAP."

There was nothing in the post about monetary issues or anything. I read this as if he was being kicked out. It wasn't intended to be mean or spiteful, though clearly that's how it's been interpreted. I can't take it back, and to just delete the comment would mean that I'm backing off what I said. I won't delete the comment because it's how I felt at the time. How I feel now is different because I know more of the story/situation. It doesn't change things though. It's clear that Ty hates me now, and I can't blame him. I hope that he's willing to accept my apology, but if he doesn't...I deserve it. Regardless, I fucked up. Hell, I'm scared that I fucked things up for Armi just by association. I'm literally speechless and don't know what else to say.

Apologies seem worthless these days because everyone says "I'm sorry" whether they mean it or not. It makes it all the harder to sound sincere. I 'm saddened and depressed over this turn of events.

Matthew W. Anderson

Thankies!!!

Sun, 29 Jun 2008 17:44:02 GMT

WOOF!

As I sit here at Pittsburgh International AIrport, I was thrilled to see that they have free WI-FI so I thought I'd write my thoughts on the weekend's activities now while they're still fresh in my mind.

I'm actually trying to avoid crying as I type this, so please bear with me.

First, I have to thank felix_j, fox_cub, and lilpupfor letting me stay with them in the Cub Hub. To say that I felt welcome would be a great understatement. From the moment I met them I knew I was amongst friends. For people that I had only spoken to only online, they welcomed me with open arms and big hugs! The events in the room each night were all a blast, and I met so many wonderful people! Thank you to everyone that I met, introduced themselves to me, and made me feel comfortable.

Anthrocon itself was an experience I've not really experienced before. Sure, I've done Anime Central in Chicago several times so I know what a fandom con is like, but there was something special about this con. The sense of community was something that I never thought I'd see in fandom. The sense of fun that everyone was having was amazing. Of course there was drama. As someone told me at the con, "Without drama, there would be no fandom."

It's unfortunate that that's the case, but I can see what they're saying as well. The good news is that the drama seemed to be kept at a minimum.

Overall I must say that this trip was well worth everything and I'm so glad I took it. For my first furry convention, it will most certainly not be the last. Again, thank you to everyone who helped make this a memorable weekend. I made some amazing new friends, and will not forget this experience for a long time to come!

Loki

Woof!

Wed, 07 May 2008 04:49:34 GMT

So this is my first post here. Some of you know me, some of you know me as someone else. I hope that many of you will get to know me. I've only been in the fur scene for about the last six months...and it was only recently that I actually got to meet some other furs. I am excited to post me escapades here without concern for my family reading this.

I'll be attending my first Anthrocon this June, and it's actually my first furry convention so I know I'm jumping into the fire and I can't wait.

So that's all to start with. I hope to maintain a regular presence here. I know there will be a lot to talk about here in the near future!

Loki